Bonfire

I planned the annual bonfire my friends & I started last year 2 weeks ago, but no one had the time. I guess it was just me & the besties that decided to make our own bonfire.

Nicole couldn’t make it out originally, but she surprised me when she texted if there was room for her the night before. I was hella excited cuz we all haven’t hung out in sooo long. Went to Bel-Air in the morning to pick up some supplies: soda, water, paper towels, wipes, s’mores stuff. Was already running late, went to go pay & realized I left my wallet at home. -_- Had to get back home really quick, came back, & left to pick up Nicole. Got to Kuya AJ’s around 1 & we went to go get donuts cuz Nicole was hungry, lol. Leesh’s GPS was acting hella cray cray on us, so we were driving aimlessly for a while trying to find the right direction. haha. Finally got on the road around 2, cut off a Greyhound cuz I was about to miss my exit. I seriously was about to get into an accident. LOL. Brought my “Would You Rather?” book that Zachs bought me for my birthday. I never read it unless I bring it in the car. I decided to keep it in there for road trips. It took us about 3 hours to get to SF when it would normally take about an hour & a half. We realized there was a 49ers game playing. Plus it was RTB that night, so hella football & Hip Hop heads were rushing over. *sigh*

Nicole wanted to spend some hard earned money on some new clothes, so we went to American Apparel first. Everything there is poop now. She said she wanted to get her nose pierced, so we hit up this place called Braindrops on Haight. Nicole wanted a little something to drink beforehand, so she drank in my car. haha. They were closing at 7 & we got there at 6:30. They told us we were too late. Booo. Nicole got buzzed for nothing. LOL. We finally got to the beach around 7 but went to the Safeway across the street to buy some wood. Walked up the beach to find unclaimed fire pits. Walking in that sand was hella killing Nicole & I, so we decided to walk on the pavement, haha. We watched Leesh & AJ try to find a fire pit as they walked down the beach. No luck. Being the spies that we are, Nicole & I spotted a family that was packing up. We got a fire pit. (: It was in the shape of a Starfish. Uhh, ok? I went to go move my car closer while AJ saved that spot. We started unloading the stuff & he goes, “Who are they talking to?” & I see that there’s 3 other people that are talking to Leesh & Nicole at our fire. Leesh then texts me “New Russian friends LOL” ahahahaa. We get the supplies down & Leesh tells me that the two Russians in the white just randomly came up to the fire & said “This feels good.” They obvi can’t tell them to go away, so they were just like “Uhhh, yeeeah.” ahaha. Then all of a sudden, this random Austrian guy comes up to the fire too. We all thought it was some sort of plot to like, take our food or kill us or something. Nicole tried to come up with ideas to make them leave, so she told me to pretend to make out with her so they’d feel uncomfortable. We pretended to make out & all we did was laugh. LOL, fail. We hella held out for an hour & didn’t eat anything cuz we kinda didn’t wanna share our food. LOL. But we were like “Fuck it” & offered them chips, beer, & hot links. We were waiting on Manang Dani & Kuya Drexel to come over. They were stuck in traffic for 69years. ): Leesh & AJ decided to meet them at the Safeway to pick up some stuff while they left me & Nicole, the two vulnerable black gurls, to the foreigners. I got bored with them really quick so I decided to start lying about everything that happened in my life. I told them Chris Brown was my 2nd cousin, that I’m 1/16th Italian, that I used to work in Vegas & got sold to some pimp, that Nicole & I went to Paris last summer & got kidnapped, that I speak 7 languages (one of them being Swahili) & we went to some rich kid high school where they taught us all these languages. Nicole offered them the UV we had & she asked if they’ve ever heard of it. They said no & I acted “surprised”. I told them that UV is a really “high class, high quality American vodka.” ahahahaha. Long story short, I just lied about everything LOL. Leesh, AJ, Dani, & Drexel came back & the foreigners finally left and we exchanged facebooks. hahahaha.

We were finally all settled & laughing about that whole situation and how that would happen to nobody but us. AJ & Nicole were drinking Blue Moons & Nicole asked me to grab a Sunkist out of the cooler for her. I gave her a Sunkist & saw two people with flashlights walking towards us. I thought they were just random homeless people walking the beach (or as I like to call them, “witches”), then they came up & said, “Cops.” Nicole knew they were cops so she hid her beer & AJ went to go hide his beer & the lady cop said, “No need to hide that. I already see it & you’re CLEARLY not 21.” I was scared shitless, & he just said that he was over 21. They told us that alcohol wasn’t allowed there & to pack up and leave. I had stuff to put back in the cooler & they were standing by the cooler, waiting for me to open it, probably to see if we had more alcohol. I hella knew what they were trying to pull so I just stood there watching them, & I put all the stuff on top of the cooler. Slyyyy. We packed all the bottles in a clear plastic bag & rushed to the car cuz there were cops patrolling the parking lot. I had to hid the bag behind Leesh cuz shit, the bottles were totes exposed ahahaha. We quickly put everything in the trunk. AJ said it was cool to stay & make s’mores, just as long as the alcohol was put away. Some guy at the fire next to us got arrested for being drunk, so we decided to leave. I got all the chairs & put them in my car. I couldn’t put them in the back, or the cop would see all the alcohol in the trunk. I freaked out cuz I saw him issue the car next to Dani’s a ticket. I started calling her & she didn’t answer. I called Leesh & she didn’t answer. I was about to die, ahahaha. But they all made it to the cars in time & he didn’t issue anything. Cool. We decided to meet at Safeway to see what we were gonna do. It was only like, 10:40. The night was young.

Got to Safeway, decided to go back to Sac & just drink at AJ’s. Manang bought an iced tea I think & the total came to $1.05. None of us had any change at all & all she gave was a dollar. Yeeah, the day just kept getting worse LOL. But the nice old Asian lady said it was ok. (: So we were heading back to Sac and my tire pressure gauge went off. I was so scared & confused. I got my tires replaced last month cuz there was a nail in it, & every time I went to patch it up, it would still deflate. Then my dad went to go check the tire pressure the morning before we left cuz it went off again. I exited & found a gas station to check the pressure on all my tires. I pull into where the air is & Nicole sees this old man in a truck next to us, sleeping. I hella didn’t see him until I got closer & it freaked the fuck outta me. AJ was like, “Can you please get out of here?” ahahahaha. He seriously looked dead & he was grey, sooo. haha. Kuya checked my tires & said they were all the same pressure, the right pressure. Odd. Maybe my light is just acting up. We went back on the freeway & 20mins later the light turns off. wtf? We all realized we had to wake up early & we were hella tired, so Leesh texted Dani. I feel hella bad for manang. ): Drove hella long to SF & only stayed for like 20-30mins & had to drive back. I’d be sooo mad/sad. Sorry, manangggggg. ):

Regardless, I’m glad I spent yesterday with my bests. I love them. <3

American Idol

So, Tuesday was American Idol auditions at Arden. Regina told me about this a few weeks back, so I was going to pre-register on the Fox website. I asked Mags if she was doing anything that day so she could pre-register too, but she said it was Zach's last day here. I signed up anyway. Come Saturday, Mags asked if there were auditions on Tuesday & I said yes. I pretty much decided to audition with her cuz I didn't wanna do it alone anyway. I guess Zach's last day was some other time?

Anyway, we arrive to Arden around 8:30 & we were expecting a huge line outside since the mall wasn't even open yet. There was no one there. We waited for someone to attempt to walk in the mall & we followed that person. Sure enough, the mall was open yet empty. Like an airport at 2AM. We finally saw a huge crowd in front of Nordstrom's upstairs & went up. The lines were pretty unorthodox, but we found the back of the line. It was hard trying not to do our ghetto black gurl voices cuz of all the black people in line with us, LOL. But we ended up making friends with two of them. Man, were they hella funny. One girl, who looked like Solange, was suuuper nice. She had a tattoo on her left boob that read "Rajon", her son's name. hahaha. She told us her whole life story. Like how her boyfriend is white & her brother's girlfriend is white and how they don't discriminate. ahhaha. This one girl in particular, Gabby, was mad annoying. Mags & I just could not handle her anymore cuz she just kept taaaalking. At one point she complimented Solange's sister (Shamani) on her purple & black sweater she was wearing. Shamani hella just mean mugged her & Gabby was just like "I'm just...saying." ahahah, poor thing. Gabby let us know that she didn't have any form of ID with her cuz she didn't know, so Solange was like "OMG, DO YOU HAVE YOUR BIRF CONTROL?......I mean....birf certificate?" omg, Mags could not keep it in. ahahahaha. Another thing was Solange hella had her birth certificate in her hand & she accidentally let it go & it landed on the roof of a storefront. She started panicking & started saying "I'm thinking, I'm thinking" then goes & grabs a mop stick in front of a store. It hella didn't reach so she put her sweater on it. She asked Shamani to go down to go catch it when it fell down, but she didn't realize there was a lip on the roof so she slipped it under the lip. She hella had to call for someone that worked there & ended up dropping the stick down to the first floor too. LOLOL.

The line was finally moving around 11, which was weird cuz pre-registrant auditions were from 10-12. I guess no one showed up? We were halfway there until they announced they found a top 20 already. There were 20 spots left. Then the top 20 performed downstairs on stage with a mic. They all suuuuucked. I have no idea how they all made it. We were finally in front of the old Calendar store where the auditions took place & we waited for a good 30mins. We got really scared cuz at that point, there were about 7 spots left so we thought we wouldn't be able to audition. While we were waiting, some lady got hella hood with security that I was getting a little scurred myself. ahaha. But anyway, we were lucky enough to get into the room. I sang "Bust Your Windows" & they asked me to sing another song, I sang "Black & Gold". I made it through top 40 as number 39. Maggie auditioned & didn't make it cuz she was super nervous. I felt super bad. ): All they told me to do was up the tempo when I perform downstairs.

So I get downstairs & wait to perform with the last 10 people that made it. This time, there were judges to critique. Odd, they didn't have that for the top 20. Whatever, I'm not tripping. So I went to perform my song & one of the judges said "Are you kidding me?..." In my head I thought, "omg, he's probably kidding around." & he goes on to say, "that was...awful." My jaw fell to the floor & I pretty much tuned whatever the rest of the judges had to say. I pretty much felt like Carrie Bradshaw when Big left her at the altar. I hella had to get out of there. hahaha. I was just bitter & sad the rest of the day. How the hell am I so awful that I even placed top 40? & how the hell was I the only bad critique? Ugh, whatever. Mags treated me to Olive Garden afterwards & we went to the driving range.

Went to Kuya AJ's later that night & chilled/drank with the bests. We're so random. Pizza, cake, alcohol, & "Teen Mom". haha, I love them.

Counting Calories?

I think I'm gonna do it. I'll give it a month & see where it goes.

I just wanna be famous

so I don't have to worry about school. I'd be making hella bank.

School stresses me out too much. I still need to switch my major & I have no idea what to take. I was looking at Computer Science & there's so much math & physics involved. I'm not that Asian to be taking those classes. LOL. I'm riding between Apparel Marketing & Design and Graphic Design. They have classes that I know I wouldn't get bored with. At my school, Graphic Design is an impacted major. But I'm not too worried about that. I'm just worried about career opportunities. Apparel Marketing & Design has many options, but I saw store manager as one of them & thought, "Ew. Why would I wanna do that?" Designer, magazine editor, etc. are all the paths I can take with that major. Graphic Design is pretty slim. I'm just worried about how much I'll make or what not. I know I've made the argument that "money isn't everything," but I mean, I HAVE to make a living out of something, right? Science & math aren't exactly my cup of tea, so the medical field isn't for me. This nursing thing isn't cutting it. My parents already have my back with me not doing nursing anymore, but I feel bad that their expectations of me aren't what they had in mind anymore. Regardless, I know they support me 100% now. Nurses make hella good money & I applaud anyone that sticks to it. More power to you. It's just... not me.

I just need to decide fast. I wanna be on my own already.